What have I become when my past 'friends' don't even acknowledge me anymore? What did I do to deserve to be ignored? I don't expect conversations. I stopped expecting those a long time ago. But I simple 'hello' or wave would be most welcome. They could at least wave back or smile at me when I see them... I'm afraid I’ve fallen into an ungodly state of loneliness and I don't know how to come back. After so much pain from people I once loved, i have forgotten how to love. Matt tries to pull me back but I only sink deeper. Is this what I’ve grown accustomed to? Wallowing in this damned self-hatred? I only ask for an old friend to come back. I only ask for forgiveness from those who believe me to have done them wrong. Please. Don't let me stay in my oblivious depression. Hold onto who I was. Try to bring her back. I miss her.
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