I look over the side of the cliff and shake my head. I don’t know what I’m doing here. This isn’t where I had planned to end up. I’m not ready to make this choice. I’m too young to decide my fate. The voices of my past ride on the wind. They tell me I’m wrong. They tell me I’m throwing everything away. But this is supposed to make me happy, right? This is where we’re all supposed to go?
No. I’m not ready. I take a step back from the edge, but the rock crumbles. I fall off the cliff but catch onto the rim with one hand. My other hand reaches towards the black abyss for mere seconds before it joins the other, holding my weight as I hang on tightly to what the world tells me. I don’t want to let go of what the world tells me is true. I’m afraid of what lies below this small ledge. It’s a vast darkness. A deep unknown.
I look back to the others I had once believed. They sneered at me for even thinking of taking this chance. But that isn’t right… they’re my friends aren’t they? Shouldn’t they be there for me no matter what? All I’ve known is stress and pain in this life. I don’t want it. I don’t want any of it. Well, here goes nothing.
I take a slow breath and let go. I fall into the strangely familiar hole, the air caressing me with its cool fingers. I am finally giving m life to this one random chance. There is no going back. Darkness surrounds me, my hair whips back in the wind. Fear begins to creep into my system.
Suddenly, it’s all gone. I’m bathed in light. His never wavering, always forgiving love fills me. I look; around and see a path before me. It’s unlike any path before. The trail is smooth, well lain out, planned just for me. Other paths before have led me astray. They were laden with rocks, dips, and always caused me to stumble. Not this one.
I smile softly and step forward. My life, my trust, my love is now His. No more pain. No more sorrow. Only a never ending peace. My other life is behind me, forgotten and forgiven. Time to start anew.
